The one I love…
by Jason McIntosh
My heart stands heavy, burdened by fear and despair,
Every aching moment, another breath in, and out,
It hurts to know, that which is loved, is lost,
For only after, do we truly know love truly.
I loved, and will always love, this I know now,
Like the fish out of water, breathing air,
It knows not what it had, till tis’ lost,
For only now do I know, how much I’ve lost in thee.
We danced a dance, kissed in the spring, listend to the rain
We lived a life, we loved together, embracing each other,
We danced to a song, traveled far and wide, saw many sights,
We shared some things as with no other I’ve ever shared.
Some things never are lost, but live on in memories,
The touch of a hand for the first time, the doors opening,
The smile of a present received, the first kiss,
The dinners, the games of skill, the movies watched,
In all of these, though some bad, so many good remain,
and I look now, seeing pain I caused, but remember still,
that there was good throughout, good someday to find,
good that hopefully will never die, good that may be found.
Fear still grips me yet, fear of loss, fear of pain,
Fear of being forgotten by the one loved most heart and soul,
Fear for a lifetime of regret,
Fear causing mistakes made worse by fear,
Fear of never hearing a voice, of touching a hand,
Fear of losing forever what my heart desires most.
To thee oh heart, I pray, and always shall,
Keep thy love, keep thy pain, grow!
And to another, I pray thee now, perhaps someday,
Forgive the pain, forgive the hurt, remember the good,
See what may be, instead of what once,
Or, remember yet what was good,
Look again, as I looked again, learn to love again, as I love now…